A Novice In Friendship

I feel like an outsider;

I want a company of pals.

The thought of being the new one,

Makes me feel dreadful.

How should I talk?

What should I say?

Do they like me?

Or are they simply tolerating me?

What will it take,

To be their friend?

Should I lose myself,

To become like them?

I patiently try to find balance;

Juggling with the right things to say,

And protecting my peace of mind;

Nevertheless, I hope to find a way.

I respect them immensely,

Cause they are undoubtedly amazing in their own way.

But how to connect with them, and how to be with them,

I don't know the sure shot way.

So maybe I’ll just let the phase flow;

Give up controlling and trying to be desperate;

Cause I surely know for one,

That the intentional ones will stay on forever.

True friends, I will have so much to give them,

Sunshine, hope, garden, and sunflowers.

And I will have a lot to learn from them;

And trust them, and love them, and be there for them.

- Jaanvi Veluguleti

Perennial Poetry